The great depression of the mind

Where is it that i want to be?,who it is that i want to be?.who is it i wanna be with? the lives we live dont belong to us i see that only now,because no matter what choice you

 make,its just never enough,nor thorough,we possess a heart that only stops when you dead,we have a brain made up of many cells but than,when one of the cells stop you become skewed or you dead... But than again... we have friends,family,lovers,wives, but eish only one soul,one soul that exists in one body.. this soul cries,laughs,becomes numb and also rejoices victory,and the victory celebrated by many....this soul gets lonely at times,it sits there sometimes knowing 

its not supposed to be,but because of a circumstance,it has no choice but to give a crocodile smile, But than the melancholy hits you again in very weird moments and in non exceptional times..it's the great depression of the mind..when gud thoughts are throttled by circumstances..It could be that what persisted that thought was the never ending idea of wanting more than you have,and when you got it you still want more,,until the great depression,that thing that makes you want to commit suicide...because sometimes there is no way out of it.Sometimes as humans we lack logic,cause sometimes being logic you are thought to know more or easily just become a nerd at it,sometimes loving someone is a burden too,because its never complete as well,you always give in less or more than the other..And sex,the best medicine for the human mind can be at times none-rewarding,because at times its just too much,even when you laugh there is a limit to it because it starts to pain...this depression of the mind...